Oooh I've totally forgotten that my blog
totally exists! hahaha!
Ohwells. But there is so much now
that idk what to do yet I know I
have to do the 'politically right' thing,
so that everyone won't get hurt
in the long run I guess.
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Disappointment over and over again.
Thought I've already gotten over that,
not letting it affect me anymore yet
it still does. Idk why am I just so stupid
to think that everything was going well.
Well, maybe to you I guess.
Or isit just that I'm too fussy?
And I thought I was already not asking
anything from you. Never did from the
beginning, never am gonna start asking
or demand anything from you too.
You keep yourself shut up so tight,
I hafta pry you open sometimes and
yet I fail. I feel so useless and this
whole thing is just wayy too pointless
at times. Yeahm I'll admit that we are
alot closer then we were back then
when we first started out, yet Idk
how to explain.I still can feel the gulf
between us still. Sigh. Talking just feels
weird cos you don't say out your stuff,
then how do you expect me to say out.
This is the weirdest combi ever and
everyone says so too.
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For once I wanna be selfish and give in
to that thought yknow. & see what'll transpire
from there. Will it be another flop? Or will
something nice happen. Yet knowing - chara,
it prolly won't be any thing else but just a
* I guess.& if things turns out worse after the *
ends, it just gets us nowwhere so what's
the point in the first place?
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Yet knowing how ! chara can be, yet I know
that I'll be truely happy when things get
serious because you and I, we both
give our all and you've already hinted to me.
But yeah things will turn out badly and
I don't want things to go that way I'm sorry.
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Sometimes leading this can get really
tiring and I want so much to go back to
being #. I know you're waiting but sorry
things just won't work out for now.
For the future Idk what to say.
But still just best friends aite.
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You. I know you're looking for a companion
but I'm not that kinda person.
Sorry so stop bugging me seriously!
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& I know I haven't been spending much time
with the others too so I promise makeup dates
soon! Now there's the major musical coming up,
my energy is focused on getting everyth running
smoothly and for ocne I won't be dancing hehe!
Hopefully the dancers and of course and main cast
will all do a good job (:
Let's go people!
